My hopes were that you would miss me enough to be the man
you have never dared to be. My hopes were that you would find my doorstep in
the rain and tell me that you truly cannot live without me. My hopes were that we would matter enough for
you to step from the inside of the façade you have been living to try something
real for a change. My hope was that I actually mattered and parts of me know in
some places that I do. I know I do in the places in which count the most. The places that you hold as your person are
the ones I cannot fight….not the feelings from your heart.
My eyes are the color of your eyes. My heart is as warm as the depths of your
own. Together a quiet peace bonds us
through it all. You are in my heart as I
am in yours and we each know this. The fight is not to feel it. The fight is to remain true to the things in
which we both want to remain loyal to.
The fight is not to give in. As
it would be to easy to settle on just one when the whole world out there may
hold something better.
The truth is that what we are finding that would seem to
imply better is empty. As I am on your
mind as you are on mine. Sex with
strangers and grasping for the small things in which interest another rather
than producing our true selves is a common.
And we feel nothing at all except small moments of satisfaction. As once
again we remain imprisoned by what we know to be the truth.
I am the freedom you want to feel while you’re the stability
I want to learn. I am the hippie with
the flowers in my hair dreaming of the purest love. You are a constant who prefers habitual
truths. I am far more honest than you
know how to deal with and you are far more guarded than one should be.
Give it up. Come to
my door in the light of our moons. Find
me and know that to let me go is a loss you will live with always. Hold me close to your heart so that I breathe
you in and make me believe that this is what I think it is. Fear not the rejection of your love as you
must show it in order to fully gain it.
Lay your loyalty at my feet and I will offer you the same. You cannot let me go….no matter how hard you
try.
